desabafo....

Dear Diary,
I was thinking today about how everything is so unfair. My life was once perfect ... or maybe it seemed perfect. I noticed that my life was superficial and even full of friends, I still felt alone. It started when I left college, started when my mother said she knew what was best for me, but honestly, she did not know ... She took me away from my friends, I walked away from years of living in exchange for what?? Well I have to say it's really come a better person, less selfish, less superficial, and improved academically também.Gostaria could say that I miss the past and would love to be able to say that I would not want to be with old friends again. But I can not deny that I made new friends. One is the most important ... is that I "hold" the place where I am, I am sincerely near her, I am myself! If I could go back to the past, I do not know if I prevent you graduate from college, but maybe I did it another way, maybe I would accept this change in a way melhor.Você must be wondering why I am writing in English and even writing a page of my diary on a blog. It is likely I'm crazy ... 'm not sad, very sad. I see my life more and more distant and empty and I do not want it.I never wanted ... clear that it broke with the face several times, but I learned, I learned from my mistakes. I miss not having to worry so much about the future, with a profession, with a commitment. Nostalgic for a time in which to enjoy and have fun was what I always did. Honestly, I do not know if I would again like to be so petty, empty and full of false friends. Now I can say that only the best friends are by my side. And I owe a lot to them, all of them. Do not know if I have the strength to continue if they were not always at my side at all times. Okay I did a lot of people cry right? imagine if the text was in Portuguese? would cause a flood. I ask that you read this, you do not feel sorry for me, but be proud, because with the changes I grew, I discovered that life is not made only for parties, boys and shopping. Life is something meant to be lived and enjoyed. Currently just do not know if I am living or surviving. But those who care, I'll be fine. I'll be ok!